It's been a long while.....♥

HII.

I'm finally back in blogger♥

Too busy and lazy to get my blog up-to-date.

Too many photos pending to be upload.

I'M LAZY!

♥

Oct 16'th 2011...

in 100 days of my moms, still got a sad when I think or just remember she is..

her smile, her laugh, her kindness, her voices, her hug, and her kiss now all just the things I'll missing...

she is the greatest woman I ever seen, She is teach me how about to survive in this live..

how to maintance and fix my heart when its got broken..

She is.!!!

She is the one reason to me to still smiles evntough to many people and trouble pushed me..

She is the one reason why i grows up and be a strongs people..

She is the one reason whose make me to believe in love even they hurt you so bad.

She is the one reason who always teach me to give not just accept.

She is the one reason who always remind me to always forgive people who hurt you no matter what they ever do.

No Love No Pain. :

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it?? It makes you so vulnerable.

It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.

you build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor,

so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person,

no differnt from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life.

You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it.

They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.

Love takea hostages. it gets inside you.

It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness,

so simple a phrase like 'Maybe we should be just friends" turns into a glass spinter working its way into your heart.

It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind.

It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-insde-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. -My beloved moms-

Moms..
I do miss you all the time of my life..

When I woke up in the morning until I want to go sleep too..

every second, every minute, everytime..

do you see that moms, since you go my life is sooooooooo empty so dark..

Im always fall when I step my foot..

my way just look so dark :(

but I believing because you'll always in my heart and didnt ever wouldn't be alone..

She can deal with stress, carry heavy burdens,

smile when she feels like screaming, sings when she feels like crying,

My Beloved moms....

Terimakasih untuk hatimu yang selalu siap memaafkan kesalahan kami,

Terimakasih untuk mulutmu yang selalu siap mendoakan kami

Terimakasih untuk telingamu yang selalu siap mendengarkan keluh kesah kami

Terimakasih untuk tanganmu yang selalu siap mengusap air mata kami

Terimakasih untuk matamu yang selalu meneduhkan hati kami

Terimakasih telah menjadi penjaga hati dalam hidup kami.

Tak banyak yang bisa kami berikan,

Insya Allah akan kami bangun taman syurga 

Dengarkan air sungai yang mengalir dibawahnya untukmu

Ditemani semerbak wangi aneka bunga yang bermekaran dengan indah.

Berbahagialah selalu engkau Ibu disana

Terimalah sederet do'a yang tak pernah putus sebagai tanda cinta kami,

Semua kenangan tentangmu akan terus hidup dalam hati dan jiwa kami..

You are a perfect's one moms, I thinks that a reason why God Pick you first..

God love you much than Us,,

I always pray "GOD PLEASE SAVE MY MOMS"

Now, God did it..

God Was keep and save you :))

I love you moms, yesterday today tomorrow and forever...

 

 

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Take me to somewhere far

Life suck, Suck thumb.
Why do we have to work????
arrrrrgggggghhhhhhh.... I can not stand it anymore.!
I really need a break. A break for me to sleep throughout the day.
A break for me to spend quality time with Allah swt, My boy, Family and friends.
A break for me to just shop till drop
a break for me to just chill and etc.
This is like 10 over times yawning.
Anyway, I gonna start hunting for new job.
A job that will make me stay.
A job that gives me reasonable pay.
A job that makes me happy.
A job that allows me to have saturday and sunday off..
do you know I dislike the fact I can not spend my weeeknd well. :(


Alright, going down for a short break.
Take care folks!

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BEST OF ME

No matter what, you’re going to mess up sometimes.

It’s a universal truth.

But the good part is you get to decide how you’re going to mess it up.

Girls will be your friends - they’ll act like it anyway.

But just remember, some come, some go.

The ones that stay with you through everything, they’re your true best friends.

Don’t let go of them.

Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world.

As for lovers, well, they’ll come and go too.

And babe, I hate to say it, but most of them, actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can’t give up because if you give up, you’ll never find your soul mate.

You’ll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything.

Just because you fail once, doesn’t mean you’re going to fail at everything.

Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don’t, then who will, sweetie?

So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life’s a beautiful thing and there’s so much to smile about. — Marilyn Monroe

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Today someone asked me...
why I stayed with you after all that has happened between us
and after all you put me trought
And my answer was simple
Because when you love someone as much I love him,
you never give up.

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Would it be okay, if I took your breath away?

Its times like that when I can’t get to sleep and thoughts just flows through my mind.
Random thoughts about life, people, love, emotions, ect. Asking myself “why”? To those questions. Only to find that I don’t have the answers to any.
Well, life’s unpredictable, that’s a fact.

And I think it time to say goodbye...
Forgive me ....
 But I thinks its enough I can't hunging with my broken heart again, so many words was attack me and can kill me..
you should have to know if not everyone have same feeling or same behavior..
all the thinks I do is my way, my decisions..

oke... back to my past only for this time in my blog.
so sorry before if i can't say it coz its hard to say or something.
writing is a reason I still can survive for every moment of my life...

All people in the world had a stories about their life. do not care who you are.!!

Ini bukan lagi tentang harga diri karena apa-apa yang pernah dilakukan orang lain terhadap kita dimasa lalu.
seberapa sakit yang diterima dimasa lalu, seberapa banyak orang yang menyakitimu, bahkan seberapa parah dia menghancurkan hidup mu dimasa lalu..
Heii.!!
that is over.!!!
Sekarang adalah dimana kita berada, siapa diri kita dan apa yang akan kita lakukan..

Bukan bermaksud merendahkan diri sendiri atau apalah, tapi saya hanya memaafkan apa-apa dan siapa pun yang pernah ada dimasa lalu saya.
jika ada yang bertanya "KENAPA LO MAAFIN ORANG YG UDAH NGANCURIN HIDUP LO???"
ini jawabannya.. : Ketika seseorang dimasa lalu atau pun sekarang menyakiti mu, apakah kita harus menyimpan dendam terhadap apa yang mereka lakukan?? bukankah memaafkan adalah jauh lebih baik daripada menyimpan marah??  benci dan dendam hanyalah alasan untuk saya agar mendapatkan hidup yang tidak tenang dan tidak bahagia..
Mungkin seperti omong kosong tapi, itulah yang saya rasakan..
hidup saya jjaaaaauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhh lebih tenang dan bahagia tanpa itu semua...

Nabi Muhammad SAW pun mengajarkan kepada umatnya agar selalu sabar dan memaafkan semua orang yg melakukan kejahatan padamu.. dan sudah banyak pengalaman hidup beliau yang saya jadikan panutan..
bahkan diumat Christiani pun mengajarkan "barangsiapa menampar pipi kanan mu berilah padanya pipi kirimu juga". so I just dn't have a reason to keep  revenges..
Forgive is so much better than revenges,right???

Saya tidak pernah tahu berapa lama lagi saya berada dalam dunia yang fana ini, dan saya juga tidak pernah tahu seberapa lama Allah swt memberikan saya waktu hidup.. oleh karena itu saya memberikan hati saya sebuah hadiah yaitu KEDAMAIAN.!!
saya bukan lagi anak-anak yang bertindak tanpa ada pikiran terlebih dahulu dan ini bukan sebuah alasan untuk pembenaran tentang semua yang pernah dan sudah saya lakukan...
umur saya telah berada diangka 21 sudah cukup dewasa untuk pemikiran, tetapi setiap orang punya porsi dan cara nya sendiri...

kembali ke tentang "bagaimana saya bisa memaafkan"..
Memang tidak mudah juga untuk seperti itu tapi hidup saya jauh lebih mudah untuk dijalani setelah saya memaafkan..
I tought when I or they come back they won't give me that feeling anymore. I forgive and forget everything. Why must you bring the feeling back????

 ini semua bukan hanya sebuah omong kosong.! jika ada yang bertanya..

"Coba anda menjadi orang yg merasa sakit ketika melihat anda masih bergumul dengan orang2 dimasa lalu."

its simple think.. : 

Even after every bad thing he’d done to me, every lie he’d ever told, every girl he’d ever kissed, I knew somewhere deep down inside he really did love me, in his own messed up way. Because you can’t keep coming back to the same person time after time if those feelings aren’t there.

so what the fuckin bothered you huh??? I really didn't understand why so many people so going mad just because i still have good relathionship with all people of my past life and ever hurt me??

it really unfair.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHY.????? all people of you're life now most of them still have a stories from your past.!! seriously.!!

you have to Thinks it.! or Perhaps we shouldnt have a memories from all moment??? so dont live.! you should be die.!!

Just open our eyes and heart.. Seberapa banyak manusia yang disekeliling kita yg berasal dari masa lalu? Sebereapa banyak pelajaran yang kita dapat dari masa lalu yang membuat kita seperti sekarang?? membuat kita jaaauuuuuhhh lebih baik dari yg lalu?? TELL ME???????

It just about who you are in yours past but its now about who you are since you past is give your lesson how to be strong and survive for your next life..... and if you want to walk away from the past, you have to be honest with it. not by lying it away.

So that’s the best advice that I could give: is just to keep moving forward and don’t give a shit what anybody thinks, you know. Just keep moving forward and do what you have to do for you.

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PASSION

Relationships aren’t easy,

so much comes with them.

No one actually realizes how much trouble a relationship is until they’re in one.

Yes, it may seem great at first,

but are you still gonna feel that way when you realize you can’t trust them or are fighting with them?

Are you gonna feel that way in good times and the bad?

Most likely, you aren’t going to.

But that’s what makes a relationship so amazing.

No matter how much you can hate that person,

if its true love, it will always work out.

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