Just The Way I am

I guess what makes me different from most girls is that I’m not the type to squeal all over you and I don’t ask for your attention at all times.
I know what I want and I know how to get it but I don’t hurt people along the way.
I can be a bitch but I’m also a weird, obnoxious loser,
But hey, that’s the truth in me.
I guess you can say I’m complicated, but I’d rather be difficult than easy any day.
I can be hard to figure out at times but if you know me, 
I’m not that much of a confusing person.
So why don’t you actually open up your heart instead of just your eyes and take a look at me,
then tell me that you love me.

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Books.!! I'm lovin' It....

I get too emotionally attached to books and their characters.

I always find myself thinking 'I want friends like these' or 'I wish I could meet this person' or better yet, I wish this was my life.

I find it so hard to put down a good book because I become so immersed in this fictional world that I don't want to go back to my ordinary, boring little life. 

So I escape it... for a little while.

And it works. When I read, I don't feel like a shell. 

I don't feel empty.

I don't feel the loneliness as much, either.

That's why I switch from fictional books to motivational and learning books. Haha.

So the mind won't think so much.

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It’s hard to find me blogging, especially when half the time when I am on the com I am either tweeting or surfing net.
However, today is the day when I feel like writing since I have something to explain or just to share it.


If you ask me why I'm so lovely to blogging or surfing net.??
I will answer :
Yeah I'm surfer net mania in  disguise ; I feel that dealing with people from the virtual world sometimes can be easier than dealing with real people from the outside world.
No one knows who you are, and even if they do, of bloging is not to get to know you but to WRITE the blog well.
Anyway, putting aside my little side note about blogging.


I am really bumming around while doing events every now and then.
I don’t know if I am feeling old or something but I get tired easily and can’t work for too many days consecutively.
If not, my body will start to protest and when I will be in a comatose state during my off days.
Speaking of which, I was seriously deprived of it in many times.
Everyday was packed with activities – either castings, work, miscellaneous and of course meeting up with the dear pals.
This is not to complain about my work cause I still enjoy every single bit of it but it can get tiring at times and I guess that goes for any other jobs.
So, I shall be contented and keep loving my job till my shelf life for the industry ends!

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It isn't suppose to be like that.

I’m in love, I’m still in love.

I just don’t think that it’s enough.

I can feel it getting colder, and I’m afraid of starting over.

Some girls don't realize what they're worth.

Some guys don't realize what they have.

Then she leaves after realizing, then he realizes.

Sometimes I let temptation go too far and get the best of me.

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Maroon 5 - I Can't Lie (Lyrics)

I must have been a fool

To love you so hard for so long

So much stronger than before

But so much harder to move on

And now the bitter chill of the winter

Still blows through me like a plague

Only to wake up with an empty bed

On a perfect summer day

(uuuh) my world just feels so cold

And you find yourself walking down the wrong side of the road

Ow!

I can't lie on my mind stuck inside my head

I wanna feel your heart beat for me instead, yeah

I just die so much inside now that you're not there

I wanna feel your heart beat like yesterday

I never did my best to express how I really felt

And now that I know exactly what I want

You found somebody else

Ooooh my world just feels so cold

And you find yourself walking on the wrong side of the road

I can't lie on my mind stuck inside my head

I wanna feel your heart beat for me instead, yeah

I just die so much inside now that you're not there

I wanna feel your heart beat like yesterday

My world just feels so cold

And I find myself thinking about the things I could have done

And it warms my soul when you let me know

I'm not the only one

I can't lie on my mind, story inside my head

I wanna feel your heart beat for me instead, yeah

I just die so much inside now that you're not there

I wanna feel your heart beat like yesterday

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Westlife - I Don't Wanna Fight No More

I was angry with baby Friday night... but now ok :)

can see baby really make the effort to make me smile yesterday...

Thanks for that. I really appreciate it.

He give me a gift, a video those make me so moved..

with a song from Westlife "I don't wanna Fight"

uuhhh.. I bet He is the one whose so sweet and lovable :)

I really wanna share the Video with you but....

Blog didnt let me to Uploading for this time .ggrrsss

but I Promise to upload that Video later and soon. :)

and instead I took a video from youtube

I don't wanna fight no more
I forgot what we were fighting for
And this loneliness that's in my heart
Won't let me be apart from you
I don't want to have to try
Girl to live without you in my life
So I'm hoping we can start tonight
Cause I don't wanna fight
NO MORE

You gotta take the Good with the Bad

Smile:) with the Sad

Love what you got

& remember what you had

Learn to ForGive

but Never ForGet

Learn from your mistakes

but Never Regret

People change, things go wrong

Just Remember...

LIFE GOES ON...

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Poisoning My Emotions

There are some things in life that you get to choose , and there some that you don't .

You've got to live with it .

But while we may not be able to control all that happens to us , we can control what happens inside us .

So at the end of the day , you get to decide how you would handle the situation .

You pick your choice of emotions .

More often than not , you'll find the ugly truth staring at you right in the face .

And no matter how you try to deny it or deceive yourself , you can't escape the reality of something happening .

I've reached a point in life where I feel it's pointless to justify .

The need to fight for my rights is no longer essential and to hell with trying to clear misunderstandings .

Because if you ask me , it pays to be nice .

But when I say pay , the currency I'm referring to exists in the form of tears , hurt and anger .

You called me a bitch , so now , I'll show you one .

So if you think what I did was bad , you haven't seen worst yet . Never had I been ashamed about the relationship I had with you , but I guess you feel otherwise .

I swear I'll never talk about you , I can even lie and play pretend .

No big . Because that would be doing myself a favour .

I've ran out of excuses , and reasons have lost their logic .

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