I Love to be loved by Sylvernes :)

I can't believe I'm standing here
Been waiting for so many years and
Today I found the Queen to reign my heart
You changed my live so patiently
And turned it into something good and real
I feel just like I felt in all my dreams
There are questions hard to answer
Can't you see…

Chorus:
Baby, tell me how can I tell you
That I love you more than life
Show me how can I show you
That I'm blinded by your light
When you touch me I can touch you
To find out the dream is true
I love to be loved by you

You're looking kind of scared right now
You're waiting for the wedding vows
But I don't know if my tongue's able to talk
Your beauty is just blinding me
Like sunbeams on a summer stream and
I gotta close my eyes to protect me
Can you take my hand and lead me
From here please yeah...yeah...

Chorus:
Baby, tell me how can I tell you
That I love you more than life
Show me how can I show you
That I'm blinded by your light
When you touch me I can touch you
To find out the dream is true
I love to be loved, I need to be loved
I love to be loved by you

I know they gonna say our love's not strong enough to last forever
And I know they gonna say that we'll give up because of heavy weather
But how can they understand that our love is just heaven sent
We keep on going on and on cause this is where we both belong…

Chorus:
Baby, tell me how can I tell you
That I love you more than life
Show me how can I show you
That I'm blinded by your light
When you touch me I can touch you
To find out the dream is true
I love to be loved, I need yes I need to be loved
I love to be loved by you

Yes I love to be loved by you

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Whose the FUCKIN' Maker Facebook account by using my real name and my real photo.???!!
he/she is really so damn it to made Facebook account with use my Personallity's.

Alright,,
I think's have a reason "why" the fuckin' idiot to do that :
- Fan of me
- Like my Photo
- Like my Personallity
- wanna be Me
- he/she persona is SUCK

Oke, everything is possible to "Fuckin' Idiot" made FB account with "MINE".!!
I really bet if the fuckin' idiot wasn't proud to be byself, And my personallity so "hermosa and preciousa" for him/her.jejeje LOL.!!

I wanna say something to you,Fuckin Idiot.!
"Does my persona catch your attention until you going mad to use my persona to your Facebook account?? Or your live is so suck and you really wanna be me???"

I do not care who you are, where you are.! I just really know If you Really FUCKIN' IDIOT.!! Damn.!

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When I were told be STRONG
I am weren't exactly prepped on what I were supposed to be strong against

And I questioned myself countless time, Que debo aser??
Hmm.. No lo se todavia :(

just let it flow than let it be :))

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:(

Many things happened & i really realised ive to stop my nonsense.
I couldn't remember its on which day, i was very hyper but afterwhich i broke down.
Friends around me, cry with me. They're guys for goodness sake.
They actually cry together with me. Lectured me and everything.
Though they didn't say much but i know they felt hurt inside too.
That day was chaos. After crying and all.
I saw my best buddy bleed.
Imagine seeing your best buddy .....
Fuck, i just dont want to think about it but i just couldnt forget the scene.
But my heart really aches. I dont want this kind of life at all.
Im really disappointed in someone.
I already said what i can say, the rest depends on him.
One incident really made me realised alot of things.
Some can be trust, some can't.
I know all these while i disappointed alot of people.
Friends, families and everyone.
Im really sorry especially precious.
I know i really changed alot, from bad to worst.
What i promised you, i'll make it.
I dont wish to disappoint anyone any longer.
Its time for me to wake up and stop running away.

Day after day, i realised how much i actually miss you.
I just hope you'll sort out your thinking inside.

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Again.???????

"mulutmu adalah harimau mu"


Sempurna nya hinaan buat gue, sampai terlihat semakin mudah untuk dihina..
Heii, tuan sempurna.!!!
Gue emang objek yang paling gampang untuk dijadiin sebuah bahan hinaan anda.!!

Senang bukan main sepertinya tindakan anda,,
Terimakasih buat semua nya,,
Terima kasih untuk tidak bisa menjadikan saya suatu yang bisa dibanggakan tapi malah menjadikan saya suatu yang sangat indah ketika dijatuhkan.!!

Engga terlalu berpangaruh banyak sebenarnya.. Udah kebal gue sama yang begitu.!
Dihina, dicaci, dijatuhkan,dibikin malu depan umum sekalipun udah kenyang..
Tapi yang buat saya sangat sakit adalah, ketika seorang yang saya banggakan bahkan cela ny pun saya tutupin agar dia,mereka,dan orang lain tahu bahwa dia sempurna malah menjatuhkan dan membuat diri gue terlihat sangat buruk dimata orang lain..
Kenapa engga lo ambil pisau trus lo tusuk gue sampai mati aja.!??!!! Daripada nyiksa gue begini, dosa lo semakin banyak, mending lo bunuh gue jadi dosanya sedikit.!!

Ok. cukup buat gue.!!
Terima kasih buat semua nya.!!!
Semoga kesempurnaan selalu di diri anda.!
Tuhan anda beserta mu !!!!

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Doesn't mean anything♥

What does friends stand for?

Someone who'll stand by you, when you needed them?

Someone who'll laugh and smiles with you through thick&thin.

Seems like i'm always the one being left out alone...

Treating people nicely, in the end you'll always ended up with more disappointments.

Being there for them immediately, seems nothing in their eyes.

I'm really not in the right state of mind right now, ="(

Just want to cope myself at home!

I'm going nuts by thinking all of the negative thoughts that's rushing across my mind.

For now, I just don't wish to care any longer, don't wish to treat people nicely anymore.

What's the point of treating people nicely, and ended up hurting yourself?

Getting more and more disappointments...

When you're not feeling alright, you just wished to talk to someone, but aftermath the person said will call you back but in the end she didn't.

Sometimes, i just need a heartwarming text or call.

Am I asking too much?

="(

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I am seriously screwing things up again and again....

And I am losing a lot of confidence in myself.

Ahhh! I guess i am just gonna hide my face if things could not be change!

Hopefully can...............

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:) :)

Hhmmm...
Bingung juga mau nulis apa,.jejeje
Terlalu penuh kata-kata yg siap ditumpahkan sepertinya tapi engga tau mau dimulai darimana :p

minggu ini cukup menyenangkan selesai jalan-jalan sama sang pacar, nonton film yang judulnya "Elepanth with" film yang cukup menghibur dibanding film2 indonesia yg sangat kurang "enak" ditonton.jejeje

And finally, aku beli buku "menguasai bahasa spanyol". Setelah cari2 kesana kemari akhirny dapat juga..
Rasanya sennnaaaaaaaannnnng sekali.!! Lol.

Oke mulai belajar bahasa lagi, mulai dengan pelajaran baru BAHASA SPANYOL.! AKU BISA DAN PASTI BISA.! :)

Thank's buat hari ini untuk pacar ku, Sylvernes :)

have a greats time everyone.!!!! :))

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.!!!!!!!!

As I grow older I thought I was stronger than before.. But I was wrong!
I have to admin that I'm still soft and weak in some areas.
Many may think that I'm strong(because I appear to be) and I have gone thru alot..
Yes, I've have gone thru alot and become a stronger person in someways..
but I'm still weak when it comes to someone I love.

There's too many things that happened in my life.. just too many
People may see n think that I'm having a good life because I've been going holidays often
but none of them understand that my heart is shattered into pieces
the true feelings inside me.. no one ever understands

I dare not think too much anymore.. because it really hurts
crying so much in bed now that my eyes sore
I'm turning in.. sleeping all my unhappiness away.

All these years I've followed my heart and it led me nowhere...
so I guess is time I follow my head!

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Dead

Something seems to be missing.

I just doesn't seems to have the mood for anything.

Endless thoughts flashing through my mind.

I wanna be in the midst of the clouds, flying to nowhere and enjoying the beautiful blue sky.

Sometime, someday, my dreams will come.

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You got me this time.

You're the only one that knows me, love it when you hold me.
Let me hear you say, now I'll never be lonely. 

Look at what you've shown me, a beautiful love story.

All I ever think about is you.

You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized.

Most relationships seem so transitory, they're all good but not the permanent one.

I'll step aside and let your sun shine.

While I follow behind Cause baby what you got.
You deserve all the props with everything I'm not.

It's like I've spent forever searching, Now I know that it was worth it.
With you it feels like I am finally home.
Falling head over heels, with you it's like the first day of my life.

You leave me speechless, When you talk to me.
You leave me breathless, The way you look at me.
You manage to disarm me, My soul is shining through.
Can't help but surrender my everything to you.

Ohh, Baby. I just miss you so..

It was since 05 December 2009 until forever..
yeah.. i wish God always bless our relathionship
Amin Ya Rabb :)




Sylvernes, I love you So much :-*

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Tentang masa lalu

seorang teman bercerita tentang apa yang terjadi dimasa lalu nya dan dia pun berkata, betapa sulitnya Ia melupakan masa lalu itu..
Oleh sebab itu, aku menulis tentang penjabaran masalalu itu menurut saya sendiri :

Memang bukan suatu hal yang mudah untuk melupakan masa lalu itu sendiri, segala kenangan itu pun tak mungkin pudar meski telah dimakan oleh sang waktu
Ya setidaknya untuk saat ini dan beberapa saat nanti memang akan sulit untuk dilupakan.
Apalagi ketika semua cerita itu telah berjalan cukup lama..

Namun suatu saat nanti, saat perasaan kamu sudah sembuh dan kamu mengenang saat sakit yang sekarang kamu rasakan ini, kamu akan sadar dan berpikir
"sekarang aku merasa lebih baik & sadar bahwa hal itu terjadi untuk kebaikan aku dan Tuhan telah menyiapkan aku 'tuk menjadi lebih dewasa & baik lagi untuk sekarang ini".

Dan menurutku, satu hal yang selalu membuat kita teringat & sakit adalah ketakutan kita untuk merasa kalau kita telah kehilangan dan melihat orang lain lebih baik dari kita.

Atau sebelum kamu merasa dia segalany, baiknya kamu punya pertimbangan seperti kata-kata ini
"Don't let someone became your everything, because if they has gone you have nothing".
Ya setidaknya pastikan terlebih dulu bahwa dia pun mampu menjadikan dirimu segalanya untuknya.

Lalu apa yang sebaiknya kita lakukan kalau dia terlanjur melekat dihatimu dan sangat sulit untuk dilupakan??.
Jawabku adalah :
Biarkan dia tetap ada ditempat istimewa dalam hatimu, namun bagilah menjadi 2 folder : Masa lalu & sekarang.
mungkin dengan begitu kamu akan lebih bisa menempatkan dimana dia seharusnya ditempatkan.

Bahkan bila kita berkaca pada orang eskimo, mereka tidak punya kata "kemarin" dalam bahasa mereka, kamu tahu kenapa?
Karena mereka tidak pernah berlarut oleh apa yang telah berlalu,
Baik kenangan manis maupun pahit.
Mereka hanya fokus untuk menyongsong apa yang sekarang & yang ada didepan mereka.

Buatlah semua yang kamu lalui itu menjadi sebuah pengalaman yang membuat kita menjadi sosok yang semakin bijaksana, baik yang manis terlebih pengalaman yang pahit.
Bila tiap 1x hal pahit yang kita rasakan maka kita akan naik 1 tingkat menuju kebijaksanaan diri.
Bayangkan betapa bijaksana nya kita kelak bila mampu belajar dari semua pengalaman baik manis terlebih yang pahit.

Soo, kalian akan salah besar bila berpikir kejadian pahit itu akan membuat kita semakin terpuruk, hidup kalian tak akan berakhir hanya ketika kalian mengalami 1 hal pahit, dan harusnya kita selalu bersyukur kepada Tuhan untuk semua yang terjadi pada hidup kita.
Karena disana Tuhan telah mengajarkan kita arti hidup sesungguh nya.

Go forward.!! God be with us :)

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Tell me, what's worth fighting for .

Make a wrong turn, once or twice .

I feel as if I'm watching my own life pass me by, and I'm just waiting for someone to wake me up from this daze so I can begin living .

This isn't what i want, this isn't where i wanna be .

I start to realize how much i’ve changed, when the things around me seem to be really different than before .

Years passed, it's amazing how time flies .

Sometimes I just let the music take me away. It blocks all thoughts of the problems I have in reality .

Sometimes i wish life had traffic lights. It would tell us when to go for it. When to slow down and be careful and when to stop. 

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