Back, For now.

Hi World
Indeed, its been more than a million years since I've last updated this space.
Its surprising how I could even remember my longgggass email and retarded password in just one fucking try!
Not that I've Shifted to a cleaner space( or that I have attempted to). But I gave up that thought.
There're memories here, part of my life, most of my childhood & youth.
Not all good things but the happy thoughts it brings.
Infact all I could remember was telling stalkers how much I hated blogging ever since.
Promised  that I'll be blogging often about dates, nights, trips and stuff ( Many Months ago that is) But that never happened.

Past few months been Hectic. For Schoolmates who's been wondering where the heck i've been.
Internship's been eating my life. Currently attached to People's Association & working life's like crap!
Even Studies didn't bring that much stress!
One event just one, is enough to kill me..
I never felt the urgency to do anything right. But everything's different now,
Now till the 28th of December that is HAHA. ( I'll fucking celebrate the fuck out once its overrrr bitch!) The good 6 months of hardwork did change me ( I guess)? Well still hate for work every(other?) day, but the sense of achievement I get when I get something done. Fuck, that feeling's priceless.

Baby and I are going strong though, coming 25 months through our R/S. He's the best thing that happened to my life ( Very cliche, Charis, I hear that everywhere) but true! HAHA. Very Understanding, Patient, Caring, Loving & everything else that I can think of. Never thought I'd be able to bring him home or my parents to aprove of our R/S ever since the messed up one I previously had? But yeah He's done better than the rest. hahahahhahaahahhahaha!
& not to mention, I love him more than any other living being on earth and I'm really glad I have him there to support me everyday both Mentally and Physcially.

Okay, this is supposedly my very brief update but I really think I've updated too much! HAHA
I promise more pictures & happenings if i do have the time. More random post so be prepareeeeedddd. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

Last but not least, 2012 will come soon, have you make a resolution list???haha

JupJup!♥

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Move On.??

Can't concentrate on anything I'm doing.

Every moment I will just keep thinking.

Even when I sleep, ,I will dream about it.

Its so scary.

Its haunting me.

I've learn so much from this relationship.

I've learn my lesson hard and willing to change for the better.

Really learn soooooooooo much.

This relationship is so much like acting in a movie...

And I was too into it and thought was real.

In any relationship, remember, if the person loves you, whatever you do, he/she will still forgive you.

But promise him/her not to repeat the same mistake again.

KEEP YOUR PROMISE!

Learn from all quarrels..

Why are you quarrelling about?

What causes it?

Learn from it.

I believe after so much sh*t you both go tru together,

you all might break up.

If not....

You both will be much better, much closer.

But remember..

If you choose to forgive and forget,

do it.

Don't complain anymore.

You chose this. (:

If you choose to let go.

Take your time.

Have some talk.

Don't look back.

I'm thankful to you (:

Thank you for giving me words that no one have ever tell me before.

Moving on with or without him/her..

You decide (:

It takes two hands to clap.

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I'm here because I'm bored.
Anyway I don't think there are anyone out there who still reads my blog, hahaha.

Oh wells, my Saturday&Sunday were spent at home.
Yes, you read it right. "SPENT AT HOME" Kinda proud of myself though.. It's been ages since I last spent my weekends bumming around at home, lazing &doing nothing.

Feels great though! Don't have to crack my brain, thinking of where to go, what to do, things we can do, places we can explore, etc..
I slept early on both days because I figured that there won't be any interesting things on the internet for me to look at, was too lazy to get on MSN, Facebook's getting boring and.... I just feel like lying on my bed so yep that's what I did!

How boring.... But I kinda enjoyed it. :)


I really feel like going overseas at the end of this year! But it seems like everyone's either broke or they don't feel like going or whatever rahhh. :(:(:( UGH.
But then again...... I'm fucking broke myself too! I'm left with $3x?! Yeah I'm this pathetically broke. I don't even know what did I spend on man... Horrible.

Sorry that I've got not photos to share with y'all here..........
Okay I'm bored of blogging already, byeeeeeeeeeee.

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YOU WERE FUCKING WITH MY FEELINGS ALL THESE WHILE

WEREN'T YOU

FUCK YOU

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I want a Rainbow hair dye.!!!!

 

Spotted this picture on a random web.

And I really lovvvvvvvveee to try out a rainbow dye one day!!

Omg. I couldn't help myself but keep staring at her hair.

Damn !! I want I want!!!

Now. A promise to myself. I will get a rainbow hair dye one day.

Maybe on my 22st birthday?? Hehehe

Omggggggg...

I think it gonna cost a bomb?

What's the price range of dying hair in salon huh??

I have no clue at all :/

Or anyone?? Sponsor? For my 22st birthday Present? LOL

I know a bit too so much early to ask for it now. :p

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I know I haven't been really keeping this space updated.
I'm busy with my job at the moment uh.
Now my mind is blank. I have nothing much to update.
I just wanna share pictures with you guys that's why I decided to create a new post.
But a post without words are too boring. So I'm typing rubbish now LOL.

 Facts.

-While you're ignoring her, another guy is giving her attention.

-While you're giving her problems, another guy is listening to her problems.

-While you're too busy for her, another guy is making time for her.

-While you're making her cry, another guy is trying to make her smile.

-While you're not sure if you still wnat her, another guy has already figured it out.

‎

Treasure your love one. 

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Got a Melankolis feeling in this Freaking friday...

hate to feeling  bored at work and when i decided to browsing Youtube

and olaa llaaa I  found this video..

and sang with this pretty song :)

I'll you guys to enjoy this video too..

nooo promotion just wanna share if i like it :P

ANJI - BERHENTI DIKAMU!

Tiap aku mendengar suara kamu

Rasanya mau bilang iya

Maafkan kamu, terima kamu kembali

Aku tahu kamu sangat menyesal

Akupun juga tak sempurna

Cerita kita tiada yang bisa gantikan

Namun ada satu yang terjadi

Hatiku cinta kamu

Tak bisa mau kembali lagi, ulang semua

Aku tak mau lukai kamu

Tubuhku butuh kamu

Tapi tak bisa rasa seperti dulu

Usai sudah aku

Kalau ku ingat-ingat lagi sayang

Hatiku berhenti di kamu

Cerita kita tiada yang bisa gantikan

Namun ada satu yang terjadi

Hatiku cinta kamu tak bisa mau kembali lagi, ulang semua

Aku tak mau lukai kamu

Tubuhku butuh kamu

Tapi tak bisa rasa seperti dulu

Usai sudah aku

.........................................

anyway It's Friday 11/11/11 ooohh a good date huh?

lets make a wish..hhahaha

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Is It You

I’m looking for a lover not a friend
Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
I’m looking for someone who won’t pretend
Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you
And I’m looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows (the way)
The way I like to have it my way
And I’m looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
Thinking you’re the one that I’ve been waiting for

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you’re the one I’ve been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you’re the one I’ve been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? (Could you be?)
Could you be the one I need?
I’m looking for someone to share my pain (Uh)
Someone who I can run to, who would stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with through the night
Someone who I can trust whose heart is right
And I’m looking for someone
And I’m looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows (the way)
The way I like to have it my way
And I’m looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
Thinking on the one that I’ve been waiting for
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you’re the one I’ve been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you’re the one I’ve been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be this one I need?
Someone who won’t take me for granted
How much I care (How much I care)
And appreciates that I’m there
Someone who listens
And someone I can call who isn’t afraid of love to share
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you’re the one I’ve been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you’re the one I’ve been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

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When Im having to much of sunshine and rainbows in my life
I'm worried one fine day in the  nearest future
everythings gonna be taken away, and my worlds gonna strart crumbling and crashing.
Happy moments dont last??!
Please don't let this be true.!!
Just need to lead a simple life with all my love ones,
doing the stuff I love the most..

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It's been a long while.....♥

HII.

I'm finally back in blogger♥

Too busy and lazy to get my blog up-to-date.

Too many photos pending to be upload.

I'M LAZY!

♥

Oct 16'th 2011...

in 100 days of my moms, still got a sad when I think or just remember she is..

her smile, her laugh, her kindness, her voices, her hug, and her kiss now all just the things I'll missing...

she is the greatest woman I ever seen, She is teach me how about to survive in this live..

how to maintance and fix my heart when its got broken..

She is.!!!

She is the one reason to me to still smiles evntough to many people and trouble pushed me..

She is the one reason why i grows up and be a strongs people..

She is the one reason whose make me to believe in love even they hurt you so bad.

She is the one reason who always teach me to give not just accept.

She is the one reason who always remind me to always forgive people who hurt you no matter what they ever do.

No Love No Pain. :

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it?? It makes you so vulnerable.

It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.

you build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor,

so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person,

no differnt from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life.

You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it.

They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.

Love takea hostages. it gets inside you.

It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness,

so simple a phrase like 'Maybe we should be just friends" turns into a glass spinter working its way into your heart.

It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind.

It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-insde-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. -My beloved moms-

Moms..
I do miss you all the time of my life..

When I woke up in the morning until I want to go sleep too..

every second, every minute, everytime..

do you see that moms, since you go my life is sooooooooo empty so dark..

Im always fall when I step my foot..

my way just look so dark :(

but I believing because you'll always in my heart and didnt ever wouldn't be alone..

She can deal with stress, carry heavy burdens,

smile when she feels like screaming, sings when she feels like crying,

My Beloved moms....

Terimakasih untuk hatimu yang selalu siap memaafkan kesalahan kami,

Terimakasih untuk mulutmu yang selalu siap mendoakan kami

Terimakasih untuk telingamu yang selalu siap mendengarkan keluh kesah kami

Terimakasih untuk tanganmu yang selalu siap mengusap air mata kami

Terimakasih untuk matamu yang selalu meneduhkan hati kami

Terimakasih telah menjadi penjaga hati dalam hidup kami.

Tak banyak yang bisa kami berikan,

Insya Allah akan kami bangun taman syurga 

Dengarkan air sungai yang mengalir dibawahnya untukmu

Ditemani semerbak wangi aneka bunga yang bermekaran dengan indah.

Berbahagialah selalu engkau Ibu disana

Terimalah sederet do'a yang tak pernah putus sebagai tanda cinta kami,

Semua kenangan tentangmu akan terus hidup dalam hati dan jiwa kami..

You are a perfect's one moms, I thinks that a reason why God Pick you first..

God love you much than Us,,

I always pray "GOD PLEASE SAVE MY MOMS"

Now, God did it..

God Was keep and save you :))

I love you moms, yesterday today tomorrow and forever...

 

 

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Take me to somewhere far

Life suck, Suck thumb.
Why do we have to work????
arrrrrgggggghhhhhhh.... I can not stand it anymore.!
I really need a break. A break for me to sleep throughout the day.
A break for me to spend quality time with Allah swt, My boy, Family and friends.
A break for me to just shop till drop
a break for me to just chill and etc.
This is like 10 over times yawning.
Anyway, I gonna start hunting for new job.
A job that will make me stay.
A job that gives me reasonable pay.
A job that makes me happy.
A job that allows me to have saturday and sunday off..
do you know I dislike the fact I can not spend my weeeknd well. :(


Alright, going down for a short break.
Take care folks!

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BEST OF ME

No matter what, you’re going to mess up sometimes.

It’s a universal truth.

But the good part is you get to decide how you’re going to mess it up.

Girls will be your friends - they’ll act like it anyway.

But just remember, some come, some go.

The ones that stay with you through everything, they’re your true best friends.

Don’t let go of them.

Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world.

As for lovers, well, they’ll come and go too.

And babe, I hate to say it, but most of them, actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can’t give up because if you give up, you’ll never find your soul mate.

You’ll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything.

Just because you fail once, doesn’t mean you’re going to fail at everything.

Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don’t, then who will, sweetie?

So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life’s a beautiful thing and there’s so much to smile about. — Marilyn Monroe

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Today someone asked me...
why I stayed with you after all that has happened between us
and after all you put me trought
And my answer was simple
Because when you love someone as much I love him,
you never give up.

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Would it be okay, if I took your breath away?

Its times like that when I can’t get to sleep and thoughts just flows through my mind.
Random thoughts about life, people, love, emotions, ect. Asking myself “why”? To those questions. Only to find that I don’t have the answers to any.
Well, life’s unpredictable, that’s a fact.

And I think it time to say goodbye...
Forgive me ....
 But I thinks its enough I can't hunging with my broken heart again, so many words was attack me and can kill me..
you should have to know if not everyone have same feeling or same behavior..
all the thinks I do is my way, my decisions..

oke... back to my past only for this time in my blog.
so sorry before if i can't say it coz its hard to say or something.
writing is a reason I still can survive for every moment of my life...

All people in the world had a stories about their life. do not care who you are.!!

Ini bukan lagi tentang harga diri karena apa-apa yang pernah dilakukan orang lain terhadap kita dimasa lalu.
seberapa sakit yang diterima dimasa lalu, seberapa banyak orang yang menyakitimu, bahkan seberapa parah dia menghancurkan hidup mu dimasa lalu..
Heii.!!
that is over.!!!
Sekarang adalah dimana kita berada, siapa diri kita dan apa yang akan kita lakukan..

Bukan bermaksud merendahkan diri sendiri atau apalah, tapi saya hanya memaafkan apa-apa dan siapa pun yang pernah ada dimasa lalu saya.
jika ada yang bertanya "KENAPA LO MAAFIN ORANG YG UDAH NGANCURIN HIDUP LO???"
ini jawabannya.. : Ketika seseorang dimasa lalu atau pun sekarang menyakiti mu, apakah kita harus menyimpan dendam terhadap apa yang mereka lakukan?? bukankah memaafkan adalah jauh lebih baik daripada menyimpan marah??  benci dan dendam hanyalah alasan untuk saya agar mendapatkan hidup yang tidak tenang dan tidak bahagia..
Mungkin seperti omong kosong tapi, itulah yang saya rasakan..
hidup saya jjaaaaauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhh lebih tenang dan bahagia tanpa itu semua...

Nabi Muhammad SAW pun mengajarkan kepada umatnya agar selalu sabar dan memaafkan semua orang yg melakukan kejahatan padamu.. dan sudah banyak pengalaman hidup beliau yang saya jadikan panutan..
bahkan diumat Christiani pun mengajarkan "barangsiapa menampar pipi kanan mu berilah padanya pipi kirimu juga". so I just dn't have a reason to keep  revenges..
Forgive is so much better than revenges,right???

Saya tidak pernah tahu berapa lama lagi saya berada dalam dunia yang fana ini, dan saya juga tidak pernah tahu seberapa lama Allah swt memberikan saya waktu hidup.. oleh karena itu saya memberikan hati saya sebuah hadiah yaitu KEDAMAIAN.!!
saya bukan lagi anak-anak yang bertindak tanpa ada pikiran terlebih dahulu dan ini bukan sebuah alasan untuk pembenaran tentang semua yang pernah dan sudah saya lakukan...
umur saya telah berada diangka 21 sudah cukup dewasa untuk pemikiran, tetapi setiap orang punya porsi dan cara nya sendiri...

kembali ke tentang "bagaimana saya bisa memaafkan"..
Memang tidak mudah juga untuk seperti itu tapi hidup saya jauh lebih mudah untuk dijalani setelah saya memaafkan..
I tought when I or they come back they won't give me that feeling anymore. I forgive and forget everything. Why must you bring the feeling back????

 ini semua bukan hanya sebuah omong kosong.! jika ada yang bertanya..

"Coba anda menjadi orang yg merasa sakit ketika melihat anda masih bergumul dengan orang2 dimasa lalu."

its simple think.. : 

Even after every bad thing he’d done to me, every lie he’d ever told, every girl he’d ever kissed, I knew somewhere deep down inside he really did love me, in his own messed up way. Because you can’t keep coming back to the same person time after time if those feelings aren’t there.

so what the fuckin bothered you huh??? I really didn't understand why so many people so going mad just because i still have good relathionship with all people of my past life and ever hurt me??

it really unfair.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHY.????? all people of you're life now most of them still have a stories from your past.!! seriously.!!

you have to Thinks it.! or Perhaps we shouldnt have a memories from all moment??? so dont live.! you should be die.!!

Just open our eyes and heart.. Seberapa banyak manusia yang disekeliling kita yg berasal dari masa lalu? Sebereapa banyak pelajaran yang kita dapat dari masa lalu yang membuat kita seperti sekarang?? membuat kita jaaauuuuuhhh lebih baik dari yg lalu?? TELL ME???????

It just about who you are in yours past but its now about who you are since you past is give your lesson how to be strong and survive for your next life..... and if you want to walk away from the past, you have to be honest with it. not by lying it away.

So that’s the best advice that I could give: is just to keep moving forward and don’t give a shit what anybody thinks, you know. Just keep moving forward and do what you have to do for you.

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PASSION

Relationships aren’t easy,

so much comes with them.

No one actually realizes how much trouble a relationship is until they’re in one.

Yes, it may seem great at first,

but are you still gonna feel that way when you realize you can’t trust them or are fighting with them?

Are you gonna feel that way in good times and the bad?

Most likely, you aren’t going to.

But that’s what makes a relationship so amazing.

No matter how much you can hate that person,

if its true love, it will always work out.

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Just The Way I am

I guess what makes me different from most girls is that I’m not the type to squeal all over you and I don’t ask for your attention at all times.
I know what I want and I know how to get it but I don’t hurt people along the way.
I can be a bitch but I’m also a weird, obnoxious loser,
But hey, that’s the truth in me.
I guess you can say I’m complicated, but I’d rather be difficult than easy any day.
I can be hard to figure out at times but if you know me, 
I’m not that much of a confusing person.
So why don’t you actually open up your heart instead of just your eyes and take a look at me,
then tell me that you love me.

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Books.!! I'm lovin' It....

I get too emotionally attached to books and their characters.

I always find myself thinking 'I want friends like these' or 'I wish I could meet this person' or better yet, I wish this was my life.

I find it so hard to put down a good book because I become so immersed in this fictional world that I don't want to go back to my ordinary, boring little life. 

So I escape it... for a little while.

And it works. When I read, I don't feel like a shell. 

I don't feel empty.

I don't feel the loneliness as much, either.

That's why I switch from fictional books to motivational and learning books. Haha.

So the mind won't think so much.

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It’s hard to find me blogging, especially when half the time when I am on the com I am either tweeting or surfing net.
However, today is the day when I feel like writing since I have something to explain or just to share it.


If you ask me why I'm so lovely to blogging or surfing net.??
I will answer :
Yeah I'm surfer net mania in  disguise ; I feel that dealing with people from the virtual world sometimes can be easier than dealing with real people from the outside world.
No one knows who you are, and even if they do, of bloging is not to get to know you but to WRITE the blog well.
Anyway, putting aside my little side note about blogging.


I am really bumming around while doing events every now and then.
I don’t know if I am feeling old or something but I get tired easily and can’t work for too many days consecutively.
If not, my body will start to protest and when I will be in a comatose state during my off days.
Speaking of which, I was seriously deprived of it in many times.
Everyday was packed with activities – either castings, work, miscellaneous and of course meeting up with the dear pals.
This is not to complain about my work cause I still enjoy every single bit of it but it can get tiring at times and I guess that goes for any other jobs.
So, I shall be contented and keep loving my job till my shelf life for the industry ends!

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It isn't suppose to be like that.

I’m in love, I’m still in love.

I just don’t think that it’s enough.

I can feel it getting colder, and I’m afraid of starting over.

Some girls don't realize what they're worth.

Some guys don't realize what they have.

Then she leaves after realizing, then he realizes.

Sometimes I let temptation go too far and get the best of me.

.

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Maroon 5 - I Can't Lie (Lyrics)

I must have been a fool

To love you so hard for so long

So much stronger than before

But so much harder to move on

And now the bitter chill of the winter

Still blows through me like a plague

Only to wake up with an empty bed

On a perfect summer day

(uuuh) my world just feels so cold

And you find yourself walking down the wrong side of the road

Ow!

I can't lie on my mind stuck inside my head

I wanna feel your heart beat for me instead, yeah

I just die so much inside now that you're not there

I wanna feel your heart beat like yesterday

I never did my best to express how I really felt

And now that I know exactly what I want

You found somebody else

Ooooh my world just feels so cold

And you find yourself walking on the wrong side of the road

I can't lie on my mind stuck inside my head

I wanna feel your heart beat for me instead, yeah

I just die so much inside now that you're not there

I wanna feel your heart beat like yesterday

My world just feels so cold

And I find myself thinking about the things I could have done

And it warms my soul when you let me know

I'm not the only one

I can't lie on my mind, story inside my head

I wanna feel your heart beat for me instead, yeah

I just die so much inside now that you're not there

I wanna feel your heart beat like yesterday

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Westlife - I Don't Wanna Fight No More

I was angry with baby Friday night... but now ok :)

can see baby really make the effort to make me smile yesterday...

Thanks for that. I really appreciate it.

He give me a gift, a video those make me so moved..

with a song from Westlife "I don't wanna Fight"

uuhhh.. I bet He is the one whose so sweet and lovable :)

I really wanna share the Video with you but....

Blog didnt let me to Uploading for this time .ggrrsss

but I Promise to upload that Video later and soon. :)

and instead I took a video from youtube

I don't wanna fight no more
I forgot what we were fighting for
And this loneliness that's in my heart
Won't let me be apart from you
I don't want to have to try
Girl to live without you in my life
So I'm hoping we can start tonight
Cause I don't wanna fight
NO MORE

You gotta take the Good with the Bad

Smile:) with the Sad

Love what you got

& remember what you had

Learn to ForGive

but Never ForGet

Learn from your mistakes

but Never Regret

People change, things go wrong

Just Remember...

LIFE GOES ON...

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Poisoning My Emotions

There are some things in life that you get to choose , and there some that you don't .

You've got to live with it .

But while we may not be able to control all that happens to us , we can control what happens inside us .

So at the end of the day , you get to decide how you would handle the situation .

You pick your choice of emotions .

More often than not , you'll find the ugly truth staring at you right in the face .

And no matter how you try to deny it or deceive yourself , you can't escape the reality of something happening .

I've reached a point in life where I feel it's pointless to justify .

The need to fight for my rights is no longer essential and to hell with trying to clear misunderstandings .

Because if you ask me , it pays to be nice .

But when I say pay , the currency I'm referring to exists in the form of tears , hurt and anger .

You called me a bitch , so now , I'll show you one .

So if you think what I did was bad , you haven't seen worst yet . Never had I been ashamed about the relationship I had with you , but I guess you feel otherwise .

I swear I'll never talk about you , I can even lie and play pretend .

No big . Because that would be doing myself a favour .

I've ran out of excuses , and reasons have lost their logic .

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Money.!!!

Money...........

Money.................

In a rich man's world..!!!

Why can't it be....

Money Money Money

In Ken's world.??????????????????

Damn It.!

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In your heart there are people like....? ???

You can fall in love before, you may also like each other,
However, for any reason you can not be together?
Maybe he's/she’s loyalty to friends, can not catch you.
In order to consider the views of family members as possible, you are not together.

Maybe go abroad to study, he/she does not want you to wait.
Perhaps you are confused, do not know how to appreciate one another.
Perhaps you met late, you have other people around.
Maybe you come back late, others no longer wait.
Maybe you understand each other in the heart of each, and the delay line can not be retrieved.

But even if you are not together, you still maintain a friend relationship.
But you know my heart, this person, you are more than friends, but also a concern.
Perfectly justified, if not holding hands with groceries,
You can still make profits become friends.
He's/She’s like, you will help him/her catch up verbally,
My heart is not very clear you do not really want to catch it.

He/She was having trouble, you will do your best to help him/her, do not mind Who owes whom.
Friends male and female jealousy, and you will convince them that you and he's just a friend,
But your heart will have a trace of uncertainty.
Every person in this life, has a heart of official special friend, a very contradictory behavior.
At first you are not willing to just be friends, but for a long time, suddenly found so much better.
You better be concerned about him/her, than with you and things will break.
You prefer to make friends, not to be jealous of each other before they can really talk about anything.
This is especially true, you'll know that he/she will always care about you.
Male and female friends to do so, especially when a friend, what's wrong with that?
Your heart is a special friend ...? Who?

Many emotions, all because of wishful thinking,
Finally, even when it did not become friends, and frequently feel remorse,
Unfortunately, some have a very good friendship, but because the other side of one end like you,
If you do not respond, it seems difficult to maintain friendships happen,
No wonder that some people will refuse to take this step.

It's like a gamble because, after the confession was not a friend of men and women,
Or even when it did not become friends. There are several things you can not expect, and perhaps other hand do not care,
You can be friends, but not good either.
Unfortunately, but also regret!
But there may be other situations do not, you may never settle just friends .....

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If you're not the One...
Or....
If I'm not the one..

I'm starting to feel that there aren't any love stories
Just stories about love..

Ooh My God,,
I can't believed when I saw (again) the old sms which ever his send it to me and I cry..
March 10'th 2010
"Maaf kalau kamu menemukan banyak kekecewaan dari diri aku, mungkin aku engga sesempurna yang kamu harapkan. Tapi aku punya satu senjata, yaitu rasa sayang yang begitu besar yang engga ada di laki-laki manapun".

Hmm, what the hell.!! Im just stupid girl, whose always made a trouble.! Yeah Im a trouble maker.!!

Sorry If you are felt dissapointed (a lot) to me,,
I know you really hate me, for everything what I did for you.
I never ever wouldnt be your good girl what are you wanted.!

and...........
maybe you will be happy without me in your life..

Im so dissapointed with myself cos I cant to be a good girl for mylover,,

So sorry...
Now its all about up2u..
stay or move on..

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Please Believe

 Nothing is perfect

 Please believe people have weekness

and

then the beautiful in this world nothing is perfect too

everyone makes mistakes 

Admitting mistakes

and then

the most important change is

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Tiga yang menyebabkan perselingkuhan

TRIBUNNEWS.COM, JAKARTA - Pernikahan adalah momen membangun kehidupan baru bersama pasangan. Suka duka akan dihadapi berdua, sebisa mungkin tidak melibatkan pihak lain untuk menyelesaikan masalah. Namun, masalah rumah tangga kadang tidak sesederhana yang dihadapi ketika masih pacaran. Bukan cinta lagi yang dibutuhkan, tetapi komitmen, untuk menjaga keutuhan rumah tangga.

Menurut psikolog Prof Dr Sarlito Wirawan Sarwono, cinta bukanlah pengikat pernikahan. Cinta hanyalah faktor yang bisa menarik seseorang untuk memutuskan berpasangan.

“Cinta paling lama bertahan tiga tahun, lalu hilang. Sisanya adalah komitmen, kesetiaan, dan tanggung jawab,” ujar Prof Sarlito, saat peluncuran buku Mencegah Selingkuh dan Cerai karya sosiolog Dra Hartati Nurwijaya di Toko Buku Gramedia Matraman, Jakarta, Minggu (14/8/2011) lalu.

Salah satu penyebab retaknya rumah tangga menurut Prof Sarlito adalah perselingkuhan. Perselingkuhan itu sendiri biasanya disebabkan oleh beberapa faktor seperti: kemajuan teknologi, workaholic, dan sifat posesif.

Kemajuan teknologi
Teknologi bukan hal yang menjadi asal-usul perselingkuhan, namun bisa memicu perselingkuhan. Ketakutan bahwa kemajuan teknologi bisa membuat pasangan selingkuh, bisa membuat seseorang melanggar privasi pasangannya. Misalnya, membuka e-mail, SMS, atau situs jejaring sosial pasangan, bahkan minta password segala. Kebiasaan inilah yang menurut Prof Sarlito kerap memicu pertengkaran.

“Beri kepercayaan pada pasangan untuk punya wilayah privasinya sendiri. Kalau ternyata dia selingkuh, itu bisa diurus belakangan. Intinya jangan cari-cari masalah,” jelas Guru Besar Psikologi Universitas Indonesia yang mendalami Psikologi Sosial ini.

Bagaimanapun, teknologi akan mempermudah pekerjaan dan kehidupan seseorang. Jadi, pasangan pun berhak menikmatinya.

Workaholic
Bila salah satu atau kedua pihak terlalu asyik dengan pekerjaan masing-masing, perlahan-lahan bisa menghilangkan kesetiaan. Jika workaholic tidak diselingi dengan kencan berdua, misalnya, akan sulit bagi pasangan untuk bertahan. Hubungan pernikahan akan terasa hambar dan terasa sama saja dengan rutinitas hidup yang lain. Rasa hambar ini kelak akan berujung pada keinginan untuk mencari “selingan”. Siapa yang menjadi "selingan" tersebut? Kemungkinan besar adalah rekan kerja, partner bisnis, atau siapapun yang biasa Anda jumpai saat bekerja atau beraktivitas.

Sifat posesif
Orang yang selalu menginginkan pasangan berperilaku sesuai dengan keinginannya cenderung membuat pasangan menjadi bosan. Kehidupan rumah tangga pun menjadi kaku karena pasangan selalu merasa diawasi dan akhirnya merasa terkekang.

Contohnya masalah cemburu. Cemburu yang berlebihan bisa memberi penghakiman yang terlalu cepat kepada pasangan, padahal perselingkuhan belum tentu terjadi. Kemarahan yang tidak memiliki alasan kuat justru akan menambah keretakan hubungan. Karena sifat manusia cenderung selalu memilih yang lebih baik, jangan sampai ulah Anda yang pencemburu atau posesif mendorong pasangan mencari orang lain.

“Jangan bermimpi mengubah seseorang, tapi ubah dulu diri Anda, maka pasangan akan mengikuti,” tukasnya.

http://id.berita.yahoo.com/kenapa-perselingkuhan-terjadi-ini-penyebabnya-142920841.html

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