From where I'm Standing

My internet has showed favouritism to Blogger and a little bit to Facebook . Because these are the only two sites that I'm able to connect to . I can't bloody check my yahoo mail . Actually , these are probably the only three sites I frequent . That's makes two out of three , so it's pretty good already . But Facebook is loading so freaking slowly , so I'm gonna make that one out of three . I'm putting the blame on my broadband . Or maybe it's my computer . Urgh , either way , I'm pissed .

In the world today , it's impossible to live without the internet . You just can't do without it . It's the highest distraction for me . It's the reason why I'm always late . I just can't seem to get out of my chair and my fingers can't leave the keyboard . Almost all the answers to my questions can be answered through Internet . So if it's down , my mood becomes the same way .

Since I'm stuck with Blogger , I may as well put it to good use and create a new post . Besides I do have some stuff that I would like to get off my chest .

In life , everyone is constantly told to be themselves . After all , it is better to be disliked for being who you are than to be loved for who you are not . But yet , is it really possible to still be yourself with the never-ending comparison that others put you through ? Can you live your entire life ignoring it and not get affected , then continue to again , be yourself ?

We are all human . We have feelings . And I'm sure no one can walk away from a comparison without feeling anything . Maybe there are a minority , I wouldn't know . One thing's for sure , I'll be affected . Or you can say , I am affected .

Books that tell me to again , be myself , also tell me I should act a certain way to not let others hurt me . But what if I don't wanna be that way , it isn't my style , it isn't me ? So is it to say that if I don't do or say certain things , I'm bound to be hurt for sure ?

Things is , at the end of the day , people are always trying to live up to someone else's expectations . Because that someone else said or did something to make them feel that they are not good enough . But really , who is good enough ?

I can use a certain brand of perfume , wear my hair in a certain style , put on certain type of clothes . Just to impress someone . But would him or her be impressed ? They will still manage to pin point some teeny weeny thing and say they don't like it . Then after all the shit you put yourself through , he or she is gonna turn around and say , "Just be yourself ."

I was myself before everything started . But no one seemed to give a shit . I put on make-up because people said I wasn't good looking enough  . I've done a million things because PEOPLE said something . And now , I'm clueless as to who I am .

You can say that whatever you do is solely for yourself and not others , you know deep down , you are . You can deny , but when you walk out the door and face the world , you know you'll definitely be judged and you will look , talk and act in way to let people think that this is who you are .

As much as I detest changing anything about myself , I know I will . Because we all want to be liked . We just want to be accepted .